JENNIFER < 3 080908

2009-09-09T00:13:00.002+08:00

MOVED!!!

relink, thanks

http://love0809.wordpress.com

2009-09-06T20:03:00.002+08:00

somehow, some things are just not in our control.
certain things that has to be done, it wasnt done, certain things that need not have to be done, it did.
ironic huh?

supposedly i wanted to get out and meet burny.
but somehow, under circumstances, i wasnt able to get out of the house, whatever you guys name it, curfew, filial girl,scared and etc.
and for all i know, for the nxt fking week, i can onli get to see you for just 1 pathetic day, which is our anni.

just how much i hate that job(comex), no choice but to accept it.
and i know, i have to be understanding.

well, cousin just gave mi a new printer, which im going to try out now.
tat save mi from getting one from comex.

and sorry guys, im really not in the mood to say any more things.
just..let mi be.

2009-09-05T21:14:00.003+08:00

din went for work today, for the reason im not feeling well. looked for replacement, but cant find any.
somehow, really regretted on smth..but i won't specifically say it here.no point saying it. i give up.

also, just came back from chalet,it was FUN.
first night everyone was active, we had bbq and everyone was doing their part, guys start up the fire, girls prepare the food.food was awesome yea.

anw, we(burny, mi, alviss and sk) headed to ubin for bike riding the nxt day, fun and exciting.we rode thru the forest, discovered new plants, birds and even wild pig. all thanks to burny, and also mi, for i know the routes.lucky memory doesnt fail mi =)
surposingly sk wanted to see the wild pig that was kept by someone in ubin , but somehow, when i was leading them, we saw one wild pig ran across us.cool eh. and subsequently we saw several wild pigs gathering tgt, including those small wild pigs, they were cute.

&&& my butt hurts right now, for the cushion of the bike wasnt comfortable, and due to long period sitting on it make it worst, and what's more is that we cycled on the rocky area.

there are happy moments, and also sad and fun moments.
why?
cuz i fell, omgosh.
it was embarrassing man.
i wanted to ride up the slope, but there is this uneven path which i slide and fell.ha
and i know that alviss was behind mi, and somehow, the one behind mi was burny.
he rode fast enough to pass through alviss and came to my aid.aww..

my knee was scratched, but it was just a minor injury.
sun was sourching and i gt burnt =)

anw, mr burny here brought smth that i yearned for it.
guess wad?
a Nintendo DS(mario)!!
and its full red.omgosh
love him to bits, not becuz of the present, but becuz he is the one who knows what i really want, who will be there to make sure i am well, to come to my aid whenever i need it.
in short, he is my man.=)

& im going to work at isetan(tonkichi) from nxt wk onwards, do come and look for mi.=)

2009-09-01T21:42:00.000+08:00

is sick, cough, sore throat and flu.

omgosh!!

wants her to go away.

2009-08-31T23:59:00.007+08:00

just when i realise i can upload photos, i duno what the shit that blogger gave mi.fuck it.
photos not uploaded.

anw, wasnt happy, so went out for a walk, alone.
received a call from jac, asking mi to replace her as she was sick.
and since i gt nth to do, i agreed to help her.

and so nice, ken kor made 'cha soba' for dinner for staff.
*nice nice*
and i remembered i once made this for someone special.*hint hint*

&&& guess wad, who came to our restaurant to eat.
Nat Ho!!!!(i duno if this is his surname)
omgosh, he is so polite, and well-mannered.

mr, burny came to look for mi although he is sick, and burnt(sun burnt)
love him many <3>

2009-08-30T19:33:00.003+08:00

hmm.this is quite a long post, so if u people dun feel lik reading, please leave. =)

slept rather late last night, for what reason, i duno.and also woke up late this morning.
watched the hong kong drama had bro had rented.

and for the rest of the day, nth but kept in the room tidying all those rubbish that bro had on the shelf.throw away rubbish and realise, we did alot of historical research during school days.

nobody was at home, and i always hated this, for people wun know, how miserable it is to be left alone at home.
dad came home around evening, asked him, when we going to paint the room.
i was reprimanded, and yes, literally.
for the hell i won't know, i felt so invisible at home. came to realise that dad is shifting his attention to bro, for god sake that he is moving over to accompany aunt.
just for this, im being left by him.

and all i wan for my room is a sofa and just a new bookshelf to put my books.
but somehow, it seems to hard to come by.
disapproving of getting a new bookshelf, disapproving of mi getting a new sofa.
just what the hell they want.
i want my room to have less stuff, more space.
but it all seems so hard.

felt so upset for the day, where nobody cares, bad cough wouldnt recover.
throat hurts so that i dun wish to talk.
and imagine having to suffer the pain of 2 ulcers, one on upper lip, one on lower lip.

whatever it is, i guess, there is never once that i get what i want.

i miss you so, do you miss mi too?

2009-08-26T22:16:00.000+08:00

hmm..although time spent with you is not long, you stil managed to make my day.
and i duno why, i find you especially attractive today.hee =)

im so looking forward to chalet.cuz someone say he had gotten mi smth that wil make mi so gonna love him so much. =)
till then.....

loves burny

2009-08-25T21:40:00.000+08:00

somehow, she felt that her family seems to shift their attention to her brother.and what happened to mi??

im having sore throat, nobody cares to brew herbal tea for me, dad never buy 'ling yang' for mi. =(

i am suspecting that my throat has an ulcer. sigh.
and yet, i continue to eat chocolates, snacks.
since nobody cares, why should i care so much either.

forget it, things change, people do change too.

2009-08-23T22:50:00.000+08:00

is having a damn fucking bad sore throat where nobody knows how fucking the pain it is.

2009-08-22T21:26:00.000+08:00

nth much for the day, but just to arrange my book shelf, and clean up abit.

so sorry, really not in the mood to type anymore

adious.

2009-08-20T21:25:00.000+08:00

Today marks the end of my last paper, taxation. Great sem this year.=)

anw, serious speaking, im not really feel lik blogging now.but blog for the sake of blogging.

sigh, bro moving over soon, having my own room soon.

gonna be so free for 2 months.

yea, going for interview tml, or just go there to fill in the form.

and yea, im back to Tonkichi.
Vivien must be laughing at mi right now.

its sucha random post, cuz i duno why, i just dun have the mood to blog.
just let mi be...

and great accompany of burny for some furniture searching and designing of my room.
thanks.loves

2009-08-05T20:14:00.000+08:00

a day spent without you, for i know, you are sick.
ppl asked, where's you. you are sick.
felt so empty today.

but life goes on. listened attentively today.
and surprisingly, biz law tutor asked mi, how much i want for my CP marks.
of cuz i wan full marks.
but he said, he's not supposed to give full marks.so well, and anw, that make up onli 10% of the whole module.

nth much to say about today.
went to sch alone, came back home alone..
missed the smell of u not walking home with mi today. although its just today.

anyhows, this is the last post for now.
exams in 10 days time.

work hard people.

will be back to blog for more after exams.

take care Mr. Burny
i miss you lots =(

10 days to exams
4 days to 11th monthsary <3
5 days to national day

2009-08-01T22:10:00.005+08:00

she missed her boy alot.
she wondered, when she is studying, what is he doin, is he taking care of himself, is he having his meals regularly..
but she knows, he knows how to take care of himself. =)
jiayou when you work yea? =)
love you always

i really miss you

she is so looking forward to the coming Saturday =)

2009-07-30T20:21:00.000+08:00

**toothache**
her wisdom tooth hurts just so much that she wants the world to give in just for her.
she has crave for everything, but yet, she cant savor all.
she wants to laugh with all her might, but she cant.
the pain is just tormenting, nobody will fucking know, how much it hurts.
how much she wish, she could just have the operation and take it off.

**Missing**
it has been 10 days, since ah po left mi.
i miss her terribly, the visual of her being push in the furnace.tears just roll down my cheeks.
brother moving over to aunt's house.
till the day comes,im all alone.
the room will once become empty, for im dumping both the study table and cupboard.
sigh..till the day comes....

**Boyfriend**
time passed without mi knowing it.
our anniversary reaching soon.
i won't ask for more, but just to have an enjoyable day.
to be happy, is all i want.
and great thanks, for being there whenever im down.
ILY mr.burny.

2009-07-28T16:13:00.004+08:00

J is so going to look for a job right after her exams.
she needs money.

2009-07-26T18:38:00.000+08:00

hmm..

slept over at aunt's house last nite, since it is ah po's 7th day.
prepared all the necessary stuff for her, food she loved to eat, the position of the chair where she watch her TV programmes.
at 11.30pm, we went to slp, shared the bed with aunt.
and miraculously, i din slp at all, but when i was just about to close my eyes for a rest, yes, i did heard some noises, short noises, it did not last long.the noise came from the moving of chair.
i duno if i'm imagining nonsense stuff.

i managed to rest for an hour plus.
woke up, dad said, she did came home last nite.
because, dad placed her chopsticks close tgt on the table.but in the morning, the chopsticks was parallel on the table, with little space in between.
i duno if she really came back, and if she did, im happy.

morning, 2nd cousin-in-law drove us to the temple for praying.
some thing happen, but dun feel lik saying it here.*weird*

went back, studied tax.tedious.
den proceed to revise on law.i love law.

and im here blogging.

in the meanwhile, i read all my previous posts, and Mr.Burny's posts.
guess im bored til that extend.
and i love all the previous posts, it give sweet moments when you think of it.and you find yourself smiling without knowing it.

anyhows, dad wanted bro to stay at aunt's house, to accompany her.which means, i dun have someone to bicker with, i dun have someone cooking for mi, i dun have someone to help mi with my IT stuff, i dun have someone to accompany with when i slp..and etc...
let's just hope, he won't move there.=)

im missing you, are you missing mi too?

2009-07-25T16:29:00.000+08:00

i like the Item 10 : Valentino tuxedo ($26)

anyone getting it for mi??

http://modiva.livejournal.com/12057.html#cutid1

i love you ah Po

2009-07-24T16:34:00.003+08:00

Life is really unpredictable.in just a moment, you leave us. so many things left untold, so many things not done yet. you left us after struggling so much, all the pain, the suffering.
those times when i watched TV programmes with you, those times when i dun understand wad you says when i was young, those times when i felt, you dote bro more than mi, those times that you cooked nice dishes for mi...

*
the moment when u were being pushed inside, i forced my tears back, but i just cant do it, i know, you were no longer with us, i miss you, i miss watching shows with you for long hours.i miss everything.
you will always be in my heart, its not the time for mi to get over it now, i nid time, to get used to the life of not seeing you.

i wil get over it soon, because i know, im strong. because i know, you nid not suffer anymore.

i love you, ah po.

its obvious you guardian angels dun do ur job, neither am i going to believe in you anymore.

thanks Mr.Burny for being there =)

2009-07-19T21:21:00.002+08:00

guardian angels out there, hear my voice, pray hard, she will be fine, i love her alot.

2009-07-17T12:02:00.002+08:00

sorry for the late post

anw

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO CHRISTINE DARLING!!

old liao wor.must mature abit.hehs

14 July 2009

before going to bugis to celebrate for her bdae, i was due for proj meeting, while the rest( Mr.Burny, alviss, jo, mei, qiaoyu, fel and kuen) went to play a 'treasure hunt' game with her.

i missed the first part, but managed to make it for the interesting part when she look for her present.

in actual fact, the present is in Mr.Burny 's bag.

yea, then off we went for bugis

while in the train, camwhored~

yea, Mr.Burny here do not take a decent photo whenever u ask to take photo~

some of us~

ooh, and one thing to mention, all of us were in black code of dress, except darling.....

her birthday cake, which we celebrated in one of the resturant, which i forgotten the name.

BEFORE

AFTER

and because its darling's bdae, we were given a free super duper large mik tea, on the house.

and guess wad, meimei drank all!!! as she is thirsty.hahs

nahx, each of us drank a cup, the rest, we played number guessing and whoever lose, a additional scope of drink.
then meimei lost for the last round, so she is needed to finsihed up.

the peoples

notice the different tat she is in red, while all others are in black?

anw, off track abit

a mother cat gave birth to a small little kitten on 13 July 2009
it was about a palm size.

and the next few days, they were always at the void deck.

and pay attention, the black spots of the kitten were exactly the same as its mother.

cute isnt it?

its sleeping in the box provided by some kind soul.

i dun expect much from that outlet anymore.
and i am beginning to dislike it.i duno why
just wana say, im back to looking for F&B job
i guess, that suits mi more.
retail outlet is out for mi.
will be looking for one when i finished my exams.

adious.

learn to reject .

2009-07-11T22:57:00.002+08:00

first of all,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MR.BURNY'S SIS, JOYCE!!!

had a great day
lotas of laughter when eating and going home.

felt great.

exams are drawing near, never fail to study everyday, practically everyday.
but somehow, studying is fun too.ha

so ppl, gambatte!!

adious

2009-07-10T14:53:00.000+08:00

Loves

2009-07-09T20:41:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 10TH =)

You may not be perfect yet, but i love you still
You are hot-tempered, but i love you still
You never fail to disturb mi, but i love you still
You are always late, making mi wait for you, but i love you still
You are forgetful, but i love you still
You shouted at mi, but i love you still

cuz for all i know, you are my boyfriend, Mr. Burny =)

anw, some random photos

Taken by darling, my trademark pose =)

and and and...anyone miss hammy?

yea, he is naughty, duper naughty, but clever, cuz for the toilet roll, he played/chew til it left to pieces for him to build his cozy place. =)

he is cute and clever, isn't he?

anw, gonna bath him this sat.=)

2009-07-05T20:55:00.002+08:00

J has not been feeling great all this while.

she has no worries for her studies, her projects and etc.
but somehow, one prob that she has, she wouldnt mind telling you this, J has been losing much of her hair recently.
it is smth, that she felt really sad about it.
everyday after bathing, or just wake up or just by doing anything, her hair will eventually fall even she din touch her hair, neither did she play with it.

she thinking, what is happening to her, why is she losing hair, what if one day, she becomes bald, when no one would want her...

sigh.she has no answer for it.

2009-07-04T23:14:00.002+08:00

Finally blogger allows mi to upload photos

some overdue photos from the day we do biz finance proj

studious eh.

see how the paper had becomes when we were bored.

ya, mi before goin out.

4july2009
nth much for the day except editing 2 reports, creating documents and studying.

She misses her boy.

2009-07-03T23:15:00.002+08:00

stupid blogger could not upload photos.

forget it.

nth happen much recently, watched 'Transformers' with the boy ytd.
worth the watch. Optimus Prime, one robot who is worth the respect of many.
Bumble Bee, loyal to his owner.
and yea, i like these 2 only in the show.

homed since the boy is working the next day.=)

anw, yea, i went back to kumon to help out.
because i need...

and damn it, sch just deducted sch fees from my account!!
screw it

the boy is working tml oso
miss ya.when can we have a whole day, just for us?
even without spending a single cent.
looking forward.=)

2009-06-28T23:42:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOY!!

anw, shopped with mummy for joy's present ytd
brought her a bag.

and somehow, mummy saw a bag that she likes.

preparing to go out~

today, went out wif smelly greeny greedy burny in the evening to get the bag that mummy likes.
den walked around before settling down for dinner at KFC, cuz someone has a craving for that.
and that boy kept stuffing mi with food, no doubt, im getting fatter,rahh~

one guy who never fails to make sure i have my meals, who make sure i have enuff sleep, making sure i dun overstress myself, someone who works hard to get what i want, who surprise mi out of the blue, bring smile to my face, disturb mi, allow mi to kick his butt, do things that i want him to do(im demanding), who is willing to spend on mi, who dun care what others look him up as, who is..more to say.

tel mi, i have sucha great boyfriend.
so girls out there, sorry, he's taken.
he is J's BOYFRIEND!!

2009-06-26T20:50:00.004+08:00

The boy accompanied mi for my dental appointment, lucky, just a usual retainer check-up.
regarding the extraction of my wisdom tooth lehx.....hmm...stil long.hahas.

some photos taken when we walked aroung orchard area.

he wun pose for nice photo~

mi~

anw, i just hate H1N1
and i just freakingly hate sch for extending the break.
mygosh~
everything is so rush rush and rush.
everything have to be done by self-learn.

wtf is that??

i rather go sch early in the morning to attend lesson then to receive numerous emails regarding homebased learning.

anw, someone had sucha wonderful nap on my bed.
sleeping so soundly like a baby that he does not know what i did.
wahahas.

the boy is working tml~

2009-06-24T20:43:00.007+08:00

seems lik im so free to actually blog everyday yea?

but all are short posts.

the dried flowers, but i stil love it =)

anw, burny, stil rmb this shirt?
im wearing it right now.
the weather is so cooling and i gt the urge to wear big big shirt.
and tadaa~ i found ur shirt~
heehs.

burny seems to enjoy working there.
so good~
wonder what are you doing now.
misses

J hates staying at home.
only J knows the reason.=(
and J did not have her dinner.

2009-06-23T20:48:00.001+08:00

a day to end with, i love you burny.=)

2009-06-22T18:52:00.006+08:00

is waiting, waiting and waiting~

well,
on second thoughts, J might go for the operator job after her exams
or she might call up her agent to require for any job available, and which she is helpin J to look now. =)

J misses her boy.

2009-06-21T20:54:00.003+08:00

First of all,

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL FATHERS!

ok
let's just say liping is stupid.

she just gave up an operator job in hitachi!!!
a good paying job..
sigh..
ain't she stupid?

anw,
wasnt really happy today
but nevertheless, i went out after studyin..while on the train, i decided, to find mum instead.
so headed to where she is.

and what can i say, mum is always the best!
she bought mi 2 tank tops.
i love you mummy.

*fast forward*

went over to ah po house to eat.

somehow, my heart just ache whenever i see her.
she become as skinny as to bone and skin.=(
aunt asked mi, how i communicate with her when i was young, as young as 6-8 years.
i remember vividly, i used to sit beside her, us watchin series of tv programmes together

dad praised mi, that i am smarter than my bro when talkin to ah po.
ps, hainan dialect is hard to say.
but somehow, i understood what she says, whereas i can speak little only.sigh.

but she make mi happy just now.
know why?
dad and aunt is trying to feed her, she doesnt want to open her mouth.
dad asked mi to come in.

and guess wad i did?
i told ah po
"ah po, AHHHHH" (* with my mouth opening)

den she laughed and opened her mouth.
ain't she cute? hahas

gonna visit her whenver im free.i promise.

no call from you for the whole day.=(
and i wondered, when is the day, we can go out for the whole day, just the both of us.
thinking............
i miss you so, if u know.

2009-06-20T20:26:00.005+08:00

my hard earned money of $50 for working 5 hours~

what's de job???

hold ur laughter.....

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is to count worksheets~

you tink its easy..

take a look at the pile of worksheets i had to count. or should i say the column of worksheets.

each columns, 21 rows.

max worksheets, 54 sets of 10 papers.

and here's the record~(*click for a clearer image*)

this picture is kinda blur, and guess why am i eating the lollipop.

because, ah jo jie called mum to ask whether we finished counting,
mum complained to her that the worksheet is filled up to the brim of the row, thus mi having difficulty taking it out, both thumb and finger are aching now.

she even told her that i was grumbling while counting de worksheets. Ah jo jie laughed, and told mum to go office cupboard to take one lollipop to give mi.funny eh..

and tada..i gt lollipop, mum says im treated lik a 3-year old kido.

alrights

anw, guees wad

call mi sinful or whatsoever you guys want, but a cockroach is a MUST kill friddgy insect.

and so sorry weiqiang, i killed your bro (xiaoqiang) last night.

but how exactly xiaoqiang managed to fly in my room??

i was staring blankly at the ceiling, den..this fridggy xiaoqiang, no, should be daqiang, flew past and stick to the wall..

that really freaks mi out.

i rushed out of my room, bro stil asleep, took my shieldtox with my broom, as if im going to kill smth big.

started spraying at daqiang til he dropped on the floor, within seconds, he was unconscious and was 'si jiao zhao tian', i continued spraying at him.. seeing only his legs moving, i took my broom and 'PLAK PLAK PLAK', till he cant move..

FINALLY, he surrended and DIED instantly~ wahahas..

took the newspaper and wrapped him up, with my broom stil continuing hitting him.

and off he goes to the dustbin..

yes, im evil, so????

and here's a photo of how big daqiang is...

about 4 cm. no lies.

tml is father's day, but somehow, im stayin at home to study, will be celebrating at night.

the boy is working tml.....sigh...
take great care when you work yea?
i miss you so....

2009-06-19T20:34:00.000+08:00

Thanks lots boy for the help of my blog skin...=)

not in the mood to blog much.sorry.

2009-06-18T20:36:00.005+08:00

Updates on my boy's birthday.

met up with christine darling and lawrence to actually hide his present in the 'forest'.

*clique went to popeye, when he searched for his present*

and i bluffed him that his present is at ' yuan zai tian bian, jing zai yan qian', when actually the present is hidden behind mi,wahahas.

anw, he found it, so yea, his favourite greeny Song MP3.

lunched and suntec~

*for smth interesting is going on* heehs

while waitin for lawrence, camwhored~

The clique, exceptional of jojo

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Foot Reflexology for boy!!!!!

see him lying there helplessly~

Covering his face, not wanting to show it.

*boo~whahahs

pretty ladies~

anw, lawrence came and off we went to clarke quay to chill~

sang his bdae song, do his famous macho act and make a wish and candle blown~

Not a veri nice cake made by mi~

Taking his cake's photo~

happy couple~

aft which, proceed to his house, waited for his parents and brother-in-law to come back before celebrating his bdae again~

they brought him bdae pizza~, and his dad opened a bottle of wine~ hahas.

*p.s, someone has the world's largest mouth record* whahahs

see~ i din bluff u bahx~

anw, one photo i took while waitin for my stupid boy to finished his first day of work, waited almost 2 hours~

tadaa~

2009-06-16T00:00:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVELY BOY!!!

All the best in whatever you do, be it studies or work. Put in your 100% effort and u wil reap what u sow. Study smart and i noe, you will do very well.

anw, look forward to later yea?

I LOVE YOU BURNY!!!

2009-06-13T00:06:00.002+08:00

day out wif burny was great.

anyhows

i dun care how people see mi, neither do i care whether you people see mi as one.

i am who i am.

even if the whole world dun recognize mi, i always noe, my family will always be there for mi, burny too.

im satisfied =)

2009-06-11T21:49:00.005+08:00

bear with mi yea, its a long post.hahas

school has been great, finished Jap oral on monday, i screwed the last sentence, omgosh.
but forget it, its over.

anw, PYY aka 'music'
you may not know mi, but i know you well bitch.
somehow, what i can say is, your actions are pretty obvious.
even my girl says so.
getting near to him, trying to talk to him, giving him notes to copy, treating his gf as thou she is invisible and etc..
please,get this clear in your fucking head that he has a GirlF, its not as if he is single, so u can do those.its not as if u can control him or wadsoever.its not as if u can be his GirlF,for i know no matter how hard you tried, he pay no attention to you.
he not wish to do so either.
who are you to him?
anyhows, i dun care who the fucking hell are you to come into my life and corrupt it.

dun mess with people you do not know.

and think about the position you are in now, what i know is, you are a loner, a pathetic loner.
a loner who goes around other people's class to act as if you know them well.
a loner who dun even feel ashamed when you are talking to a bunch of people you do not know.
a loner who thinks she can mix well with others.

i look upon you that you put in such great efforts to do those.

but before you do that, think before you act, dun be such a clumsy fool acting around as if you know everything. go around following people. or should i recommend you a job, a detective job. suits u eh..

anw, i know this post wil leads to many comments, even comments from burny, but i dun care.
im not a person you can mess with, i warn you.
and i know, he is not de type for you, because, he loves his GirlF much more than anything else, other than his bball. Go around asking people, how much he loves his GirlF, to the extend that he can do what. you wouldnt want to know.

so give up the thought yea?

and i wil just close one eye, thinking that is just a dirt suck at my eyes there, waiting for my eye lashes to actually blink it off yea.

and seriously, i dunid any comments for this post.thank you for you understanding =)

2009-06-08T22:33:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 9TH MONTHSARY BURNY

burny brought this for mi =)
loves <3

A nice story to share with you all =)

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions... She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her. On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart. That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. I know how her heart could not bear to hear my last words now. I still carried her, my last one...this time with my wreatched heart.

2009-06-06T09:34:00.002+08:00

sigh..

early in the morning and im missing someone so much..

lazy burny stil sleeping~

2009-06-02T21:14:00.003+08:00

sometimes u really need a good partner to be by your side, console you, be right there at the very moment to hold you tight, to tel you no matter how bad things are, he will always be there.
No matter how bad your attitude or temper is, he will not hold it against you, rather, talk sense into you, never to be harsh in his words, sweet and sincere in making you happy, tried hard to fulfill promises and last but not least, all attention on you.

thanks my happy pill "BURNY"

愛していますBURNY !!!

2009-05-28T22:10:00.002+08:00

bridesmaid-to-be on sunday =)

somehow...im starting to dislike you...

*dun ask mi who is the person, i will tel no one =)

2009-05-23T22:36:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!!!

i hate being a woman!!

i hate monthly grief!!!

fuck

2009-05-22T22:50:00.003+08:00

HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY TO MEIMEI!!

hope you enjoyed ur day wif us, althou we played too over le.hahas

and yes, im BURNED~

why?

cuz we went to sentosa

why?

cuz we played volleyball right under the freaking scorching sun!!
fun~

carrying on with our plan,

we smashed flour on meimei, pour water over her, play games and buried her in sand..lotas fun.hahas

aft which, dine-ed at suntec city.den in order to surprise meimei, i lied that i nida go home, when in fact i went to buy donuts and prepare all the stuffs.(yea, candles and etc)

....darling cabb-ed us home, right at my house there before she go amk hub.
she's always sending mi home, making sure i msg her aft i reached home.
aww..sweet rite? like a big sister to mi.heehs.
to darling, no worries, i wun think much =) like wad u said..kk abit.

anyhows,
a nice day spent wif cliquey.
althou i wasnt feeling well since last nite, i remained strong.

thanks for keeping mi accompanied for the day.
althou de camera is impt, im impt too.yea?
and thanks for bringing the gastric med wif u.i nid it during those times.hahs
tel mi i have a great bf .
tel mi that no one is snatchin him away from mi.

*P.S, photos will be uploaded soon once i take the camera from boy.

2009-05-19T19:17:00.004+08:00

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yesiwantobewithyoutiliendmylastbreath.

anw,you must really have patience when reading this.hahas.if not, dun read.
its just part of my nonsense post of the day =)

2009-05-16T23:32:00.003+08:00

STUDY DAY

visualize people, 4 modules revised in just one day.

taxation and ICT(access) will leave it for tomorrow.

and i felt great after studying thou, tired too.

i can sleep, even when the light is on, where my heart is thinking of u.

2009-05-15T21:46:00.004+08:00

I HAD A WONDERFUL DAY WITH MY BOY!!

as stated for my topic of the day, yes, i enjoyed time spent with him =)

went over to UOB plaza to get the accounting book from my tutor, den headed to bugis ( gan ma's shop) as Boy wan to look for his vest.

yea, he brought his vest and somewhat, Boy's bdae happens to be gan ma's bdae too.(16th JUNE)

we caught "wolverine, the origins", not bad, althou i had watched the unedited screening. =)

Boy is having stomachache..
please, take good care of urself can?
and i really enjoyed my day with you.
minus those minority that u talked aloud to mi.
i love you..
last advice,don't approve friends u do not know =)

2009-05-11T23:07:00.005+08:00

i was given the very last chance i had..

neither am i going to let you go anymore.
you mean everything to mi..

we still have a long way to go.
there are still a lot of things i have not show you.

there are still a lot of things i wan to do with you
(please dun tink otherwise)

im lookin forward to ur bdae, our first year anniversary and many more anniversary...

I STILL LOVE THE CRAZY YOU ALOT!

yes, you always disturb mi, now, im going to disturb u back, no matter how hard u push mi off, im gonna stick to u lik a leech. bleahx

2009-05-10T20:27:00.006+08:00

it's just isn't my day.=(

morning shift today wif Russell and boss.
imagine 2 servers handling the floor.
and yes, today is mummy's day, cafe is so damn fucking busy.

plus the menu for mummy's day promo wasnt installed in the system, so everything cock-ed up.
yes, its a mess.

i gt scolding from customers, i gt scoldings from chef.
wtf

i brought the food to de specified table correctly, but kept rejected.
she say wad she ordered wasnt tat.
i double check twice, yes TWICE.
scolded f-word for so many times in the pass area.
went back to that table, "mdm, you did ordered garlic mushroom prime steak." (in a fuck-ed up tone).
"oh yes, my son ordered.

WTF is that.

tell mi, u are in the wrong or mi?

before that, customers wan their desserts to be served.
i went to pass and asked for desserts, and because there is this fucking table that sits 8 adults and 8 kids, their food are all there, which means, not served yet.
chef reprimmanded mi saying i serve all those food before asking him for desserts.

wtf is that again.hellos, onli 2 servers working, with onli 2 hands available.
how u expect mi to bring all out?

and yes, in attempt to bring all out, i held 2 plates on my left hand, one on my right, and i scalded one of my finger.

and then chef came to talk to us, onli both of you work rite, dun rush, calm down and see which table not yet served, kitchen staffs will do it.
suddenly so nice, im not used to it.

and i knocked-off at 3pm sharp, left 4 tables for russell to handle.

and im down with slight fever now..
=(

2009-05-03T01:06:00.002+08:00

The forever so crazy boyfriend i have

and yes, my favourite colour, red =)

my shoes are red too, thanks to my clique =)

u once said i changed...
but did u...too?

i guess, im ur lucky girl =)

2009-04-29T22:40:00.002+08:00

somehow, sometimes, things just doesn't goes the way you want them to be.
no matter how hard you yearn for it.
no matter how hard you trying to stop.

im tired,goodnites peeps =)

2009-04-28T21:29:00.002+08:00

Just forget it

2009-04-26T00:17:00.001+08:00

to be there to take my photos, to take those precious moment down.

to be there to hold my hand as tight as u can, not lettin go so easily..

2009-04-23T20:19:00.007+08:00

Fuck Fuck Fuck

everything is so Fuck-ed up..

Fucking annoying, Fucking frustrated, Fucking tired, everything Sucks, everything Fuck.

FUCK!

felt so much like crying..

no one cares ='(

apology to bibi, i really nid to say this word.

i need you, do u know?

2009-04-21T23:45:00.002+08:00

just came back from work and i am so bloody TIRED~

fries dipped with cheese cooked accompanied us(shermain, mi, rodney,talal) tonight.

work was fine for me, gettin along well with the staffs, or rather, with friends instead.
lames jokes all the way man..
by ash, mi and kevin.

anw, My Boy surprised mi today before he went for work, accompained mi to eat my lunch-come-dinner,and one more thing....he came with panadol, something i nid most as i was havin headache.

tell mi, where can i find sucha sweet boyfriend.
loves <3

ok, im real tired now..nites =)

2009-04-20T23:55:00.000+08:00

Nites all.....

2009-04-19T23:09:00.005+08:00

a picture depicts a thousands word.

i missed the days when we can go out practically everyday..
i missed the days when you can hug mi tightly, as if a koala bear huggin the bamboo..

sigh..

why do i have to lost my phone
if i had not lost it, would i fuckin work for so many days, without caring how tired i am.
without fail, everyday i would be deadbeat.

i want to spend more time with you
but i guess, tat would be til sch reopen.

all i can do now is, endure and endure...

i miss you lots

2009-04-18T23:42:00.001+08:00

i will be meeting you at 9pm sharp, but if u goin to come out after 9pm, den i guess i will head home bahx.

*i drank

2009-04-17T21:45:00.000+08:00

I.MISS.YOU

Do you know?

2009-04-16T22:28:00.002+08:00

work today was fun duh..

gt to know more staffs, jokable staffs.
was doin host today, but anyhows, i did tried take orders, not bad.hahas.

My Boy surprised mi when i was about to end work.
waited for mi to change and off we went to eat, cuz i veri HUNGRY~

took silly photos tgt.
and i just love the time i spent with My Boy.=)

*tml workin mornin shift with qiaoyu =)

2009-04-15T22:00:00.003+08:00

im super duper tired right now..
but i just wan blog..

started work today wif qiaoyu
not bad, except for the uniform..eucks..

observed, served and did nth much.
make friends, and i was tested by the 'manager'.
test as in those EQ test.
i gt one wrong, but second correct..cheers.

anw, end work, brought food and qiaoyu accompanied mi to get my new sim card.
Thanks lots =)

i called numerous times, sms numerous times..but no reply til i was on my way home.
I know your sleepin habits now, i dun blame you.
I guess i have to get used to it soon..
it may be just 1 sec, 1 min, 1 hour, 1 day...you are always in my thought.
i wished you are the first one to send mi to work on the first day, the one who pick mi up from work on the first day.
but nevertheless, i told myself not to expect much..
i noe you are busy lookin for my phone, i dun blame you..
but i just want let you know, you never leave my mind, i miss you so...

2009-04-14T23:58:00.003+08:00

I HATE TODAY

yes, i hate it, but stil,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEVIN =)

came back from chalet, rested for an hour, out to hospital again.
brought food for dad, den off he went aft 2nd cousin came.

Doc Liu came in, looked for dad, but dad wasnt ard, so he talked to mi regarding the CT scan that granny just took.

Its confirm, so.....cried while he told mi the results/report.
called dad immediately..

please god, i beg you, let granny be healthy can?
i cant afford to lose her..

and yes, i lost my phone.
FUCK.

reported it, suspend my line til i go and take my new sim card.

You 2 fuckin girls, may u both get into accident and vanish from this world.
yes, im evil, so???
some people are just so unreasonable, or can i say, hard-hearted.
how would u people feel when u lost your phone, and u cant find it?
all ur contacts, all ur photos, all ur info, ALL GONE!!
how you you fucking feel?

forget it..

all i can blame is my carelessness..

2009-04-12T21:46:00.005+08:00

HELLOS PEOPLE!!

back from one-day job, tiring..

but nevertheless, My Boy surprised mi with Auntie Anne's, with this, i dun mind standing long.
and he then rushed for work.

tel mi, where to get sucha good boyfriend?

i love you my boy.
much appreciated =)

7.30pm, went to wash the dispenser, while washin, was offered sausage, but declined. =)

den home with Annie, surprisingly, she was from NYP(marketing).
hope to see her in sch. =)

Here's a photo of mi and the dispenser.

going for interview tml, wish mi luck dudes.

den to class chalet with my boy =)
loves <3

2009-04-10T15:39:00.002+08:00

somehow, i have been wondering. What made us to where we are now. What's the reason for living in this world? Every question has an answer to it.

i saw how the nurse collected blood from granny just now.
She was so much in pain, calling out for dad when the nurse do the process.

yes, i nearly cry. =(

if i can, take my life to replace hers.
so long as she is well, im happy.

You seems so busy last night, whenever i replied you or asked u a qns, it takes u long to get back to mi. I waited like nobody's biz.
Before you go for work, i waited for your reply, but no reply. Look like a silly fool staring at my hp.

yes, im a fool, a silly fool.

i nid not ppl to bother abt this post, i nid not ppl to care abt my matters, don't come askin mi any questions, unless you have any job recommendations for me. thanks

2009-04-09T18:39:00.002+08:00

For the past 19 years, this is the first time brother apologise to me.

='(
pain

2009-04-08T23:41:00.006+08:00

HAPPY 7TH MONTHSARY MaoMao!!!

althou we were upset abt the poor customer service rendered by the 'Japanese village''s management, we stil enjoyed our meal and our movie 'L.O.V.E'. Sweet and short love stories~

MaoMao asked mi this question.

"baby.. in this 7 month wad u think abt me and our r/s."

My reply was

"hmm..althou we have our upset times, the time spent with you these 7 mths is fruitful. i feel de love u gave mi, the times when im sad, the times when im happy, the times when i realise i cant do anythin without you."

I asked him back.

"How about you?"

His reply was

"to me i think i nvr loved someone so deeply and long before, i cant help to think abt you even though u are not around me, everything i do usually will link me up to u.. i love the time we spend together, we quarrel, we play, we go crazy and slap each other and of cos, the time we had for movies... thank you for being there for me when i need you..
LAST BUT NOT LEAST! I LOVE YOU!!!!"

you guys may think its mushy or wadsoever.

but thats not wad i think, the onli thing i noe is, this is true love.

Whether or not the time spent with him is short or long, we never fail to fool ard, we slap each other, yes, we slapped~ but not using much force, he always make sure i wun fall to the extend that he hold mi real tight, he protected mi everytime i wear short skirts (so that i wun reveal anythin to others), he piggy-back mi home when i had severe gastric pain, he brought herbal tea when im sick and many more.

you people might think..wahx..so sweet lovin mehx? so mushy..cant stand it..

so wad, i dun care wad the fruiting care u people think.

say wad u wan.cuz i dun care at all..

i love you

2009-04-07T21:43:00.004+08:00

MaoMao surprised mi with this hand-made card and appeared at my doorstep while im resting.

and i love hand-made card, especially by someone i love.
*much appreciated*

great effort in drawin the tigger. =)

by ALVAN CHEN LIANG KUN, my love.

I trust you, so dun break the trust i have in you. Remember wad u promised mi, "I will never ever leave you and you are the onli one i love."

anw,lik wad i said, granny was hospitalised.
just came back not long visiting her, report was out, she have this mild stroke on her right brain, and a blockage in her throat, causing her difficulties to eat or swallow things.

sigh, my heart really hurts when i saw her.

felt lik crying at that point of time.
but somehow i have to be strong.
cuz i noe, my dad needs mi, he cant fall at this point. Busy with his work in the mornin, go visit granny, settle this settle that...sigh..

please god, take good care of granny.can?

2009-04-06T22:07:00.003+08:00

despite me being sick, still accompanied dad and aunt to send granny to TTS hospital.
she was awarded. due to the fact that she fell down 4 times at home. Complaining about giddiness and headache.

sigh.

hope nth would happen to her.
*pray hard*

and somehow the service at TTS is real bad.
granny was sent in at 3pm, and guess wad.she was being awarded to the room at 10pm.
what the fruit!!

anyhows
came back and went to see doc.
being sick for 3 days is a no no for mi.
doc said its flu, avoid coffee, fried food and switchin on aircon.

i expected too much.
hoping things that wun happen despite waiting long for it.

2009-04-06T11:12:00.002+08:00

apparently going out the nxt day during recovery is not a good idea.

going to see doc later. ='(

2009-04-05T12:01:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO BIBIANA CHENG!!
MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE AND ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR STUDIES.
BE THE MOST OUTSTANDING NURSE YEA?
( your present will reach you by 6pm++ aft ur work, which is delivered by mi!)

anw, i just had my worst day ytd.
sick, lying on bed for hours.
and guessed i must have slept alot ytd aft eatin those drowsy medicine.
(after 'sweepin wood' slept at 10am to 3pm, ate med, slept 4pm to 6pm, ate dinner at ah po's hse and came back home, ate med, slept 10.30pm to 10am(sunday,today). not including those number of times i woke up to see whether did you msg mi.)

i know you do have your reason for not being there for mi.
i know you have your work to attend to.
im not blaming you, neither am i so selfish to the extend asking u forgo your work and rush to mi.right?
all i need is just a concern msg from you.tellin mi i will recover in no time, tellin mi to take care of myself, tellin mi to eat my med on time.

and u noe how tight i hugged my tigger ytd? hoping the one im huggin is you.

anw, i noe u worked late last night, and you have to go out with your family and work again.
so do take care of urself since u just recovered. drink plenty of plain water and not coke yea?

2009-04-03T21:47:00.002+08:00

spent my day with my love.
enjoyed myself =)

maybe i shouldnt see so much.maybe i shouldnt even go see..
least make mi tink so much..

anw, tml gonna wake up early to 'sweep wood'.

and im not even feelin well.='(

thats my boy.
always so curious abt everything.

"There is no remedy for love but to love more."

2009-04-02T20:32:00.004+08:00

it just sucks

everything sucks.

mood sucks

attitude sucks

temper sucks

ppl sucks

whatever.

not in the mood for anything.

so just leave mi alone, even if im not fucking well.

2009-03-31T22:15:00.003+08:00

went tuition centre just now.

anw, im kind of lazy to write.so just see the cute faces of the kumon kids.

marques- i like seein him sayin 'goodbye' to me. cute~

JunAn- smart kido

PeiHong- serious in doin his work.

stephanie

i just feel lik lying on my bed and do nth.sigh~

2009-03-30T13:04:00.000+08:00

30 march 2009 : Happy Birthday to me =)

had a great day out wif my love.
watched "Push"dinner-ed and arcade-ed =)

&&& he brought a pair of earing.looks nice on him =0
(fyi, he onli wears one of it, the other one he gave it to mi)

anw, Thanks for the gifts from the boys( Alvin, kevin, alviss,sk,lowell)
& gifts from cliquey(darling, qiaoyu, kuen, meimei, felicia and jojo)

And also thanks magdalene for posting this up in your blog. thanks for your wishes too =)

& bibiana who dropped this card and a pair of earings at my doorstep =) loves

Great thanks to my love for this lovely necklace.i love it =)

not onli this, he made a birthday video for me, wif him singing the bdae song inside =)

Last but not least, here are the ppl i wana thanks for your wishes =)
(not according to who sent it to mi first)

My Love. Bibiana. Chin Ying. Xue'e. Fiona. Peggy. LeeGek. Weiqiang. SamuelCHEW. Claris. Qiaoyu. Darling. LayKuen. Jolena. Shihmei. Felicia. Alviss. Magdalene. Beverly. Anthonny. Samantha. YongJun. BaoLing. Bendy. XueLi. Jasmine(xueting). Richard Kor. Rachel(DaSao)

"You can spend the whole day with someone perfect and feel nothing. You can also spend the entire day just by sitting beside that special someone and feel blessed, that's love."

2009-03-29T23:32:00.004+08:00

i had a fantastic advanced bdae celebration wif family and my love just now.

and guess wad..

someone dropped smth at my doorstep just now. aww~
and i promise, reduce my vulgarities in my blog. =)

will post everything aft tml.

a date wif my boy =)

2009-03-28T22:52:00.002+08:00

went over to ah po's hse for dinner.

sigh, i felt sad whenever i saw her.

since last week, she had been so fragile, no appetite to eat, so weak that she fell down when she woke up. and dad brought her to the clinic.

brought 'kai wei yao' for her, so at least she might eat abit.
but she ain't eating a lot.
she seems so....skinny and forgetful
it just breaks my heart =(

and just now, tryin hard to persuade her to eat the noodle, but she ate only 1/4 of it.
sigh..
and bro went home early as he wasnt feeling well.

and guessed wad ah po asked mi when im going home.
"your bro din come?"

i was lik....=(

but at the same time, i find her cute.

wana brin her out for walk, but she is so weak that she cant walk down the stairs. =(

i duno how many sad face i had put in here.
but my heart just hurt. ='(

the time i stayed dere before moving out, she did nagged at mi, accompanied mi watch tv programmes. althou i duno how to speak 'Hainan' direct language, she tried hard to catch my chinese language.

she is a really great ah po.i love you. please, to be healthy always.

2009-03-27T19:46:00.013+08:00

i'm back from chalet!!

anw, here are some overdue photos =)

my second husband

waiting for food!!

curling up to sleep. ZZzzz

Big dog sleeping ZZZZZZzzzzzzz

ALRIGHT, here are the chalet photos.

THANKS LOTS FOR THE ADVANCED CELEBRATION FOR MY BIRTHDAY GUYS!!

great thanks to my love for organizing this chalet for mi.loves.
great thanks to kevin,alviss,sk,lowell for the bag.i love it =)
(if i miss out anyone, do tel mi yea?)

great thanks to cliquey(darling, qiaoyu, meimei, kuen , felicia and jojo) for the red canvas shoe and cardigan. I promised u girls i will wear the shoe to sch everyday =)

great thanks to alvin for the shirt and belt =)

enjoy the photos =0

FIRST day 25/03/09

ping and kuen =)

ping and felicia =)

ping and qiaoyu =)

ping and meimei =)

din manage to take photo wif jojo =(

part of us who reach early to book in

serious guy reading

darling happily talking.

One guy who dislike showing his face after his facial treatment =)

shot in a shot??

Felicia =)

group photo

someone do look like he is being....LOLS

anw, my love actually surprised mi with this cookie cake( from Famous Amas).loves <3

he actually rushed to get this cake before heading for his staff meeting.aww..

and thanks darling for helpin him too.loves

"Happy 19th Birthday My Love"

with my lovely cake =)

celebration =)

cliquey, the girls.

The boys =)

Thanks lots my crazy boy <3

qiaoyu and darling =)

SECOND day 26/03/09

cliquey went home and left the few of us here.
accompanied them out to take the shuttle bus, and on our while walking, i asked kuen to take her dizi and play it, cuz i lik the sound of it.

and guess wad kuen did?

she played 'happy birthday' song for mi.aww..so sweet.

asked darling quickly record down for mi.

anyhow
second day of chalet, we went prawning in the evening.
managed to catch 6 prawns, prawns are my love.

boy taught mi how to prawn. =)

serious dumbdumb putting the worm through the hook. ouch~

he do look serious when it comes to fishing and prawning.

make a guess, did i wear shorts??

this shirt belongs to dumbdumb=)

YES, i did =)

second nite was spend gambling and bbq-in.

dumbdumb was losing at first, but in the end, winner is him.and he shared half of his winnings with mi.

i love you, not because of the money, but because of who you are when you are with me =)

my dumbdumb <3

THIRD day 27/03/09

felicia and alvin left early.

on the way out with the guys.

they are so reluctant to take photos. =/

walking~

only dumbdumb is willing to fool around and entertain mi.loves <3

reached home and headed to bed str away, aft packing my things.

anw, really thanks you guys, and the presents too!!
one of the best celebration i ever had.

and also, last but not least.
THANKS my love for everything, the chalet, the happy moments, the crazy moments.
i love it all.

2009-03-23T22:28:00.001+08:00

great

down with fever and spitting headache.

"wish you were by my side"

2009-03-22T15:13:00.002+08:00

date : 22 March 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHIN YING!!
one year older le wor.hope u are doing well in your school, and do hope you spend this special day of yours with ur loves. Miss ya =)

wasnt feeling veri well today.

gastric has been giving mi problem since last nite.sigh~

anw, accompanied mum to fairprice to get a container and some groceries.

fyi, the container is for mi to keep all my tiggers.heehs.

surprised to see this?

yea, those tiggers i owned. some were from secondary school cliquey.
and some were from my love, where he caught it while playing the sweet machine in the arcade.

and i had decided, my future house will have a room reserved for all my tiggers!!

love is busy today, so i guess i will spend my day sleepin bahx.not feeling well.
adious~

"Each day I spend with you is rewarded by special memories. Things that we do together complete our daily thoughts, for without you there is no bright, sun shining day."

2009-03-21T23:17:00.001+08:00

i love spending my time wif my love.

even though its just sitting near the sea, enjoying the breeze and each other's accompany, thats enough to make my day.

iloveyouboy

2009-03-21T12:36:00.002+08:00

lying in ur arms is all i want right now.

might be roaming ard alone today.=)

2009-03-20T19:42:00.007+08:00

A SUCKY DAY

bad start of the day.
woke up feeling moody for no reason.

received love's msg saying he's going to work for fucking 12 hours.
double moodless
and i just dun understand why cant u tell them you are not feeling well.so wad if they cant find replacement, so be it.ur health is more impt than anything u noe?

nvm..

out of no reason, i packed my study table.
and guess wad i found?

ANTS!!
FUCKING ANTS!!

took my bygone and started spraying at them, gosh!!
whole chunk of them crawled out of my box that i put my files and notebooks.

wtf~

nvm, continue spraying till all of them died.with them carrying their eggs somemore.

if u can notice, the white colour thing is the egg, and the ants are dead by then.

this shows onli those that fell when i sprayed at them.
others are on the box which i threw it away aft they died.

never in my life i saw so many ants on my study table.

anyhow,
phone's touch screen was insensitive, took it for servicing at bishan service centre.

was told that i need to leave my phone there,
and worst of all, due to software upgrading, ALL DATA WILL BE LOSS.

fuck it!!

i did saved all my music and images in my hard drive.
but i cant transfer all love's sweet message he sent mi to my sim card, it can onli take up to 20max msg.

FUCK

wad a great day~
har~

those messages meant a lot to me.....
it shows how u used to get jealous, how much u love mi, how much u care....

sigh...

went tuition aft that, wasnt in the mood, so din work..
and nice one.i hit my head on the wall while wearing my shoe, cuz i lost my balance.

damn it.

my love is busy for sat and sun.
so i guess i will be heading to gran's again to spend time wif lucky.

andand..i feel like going to the beach =(

2009-03-19T23:20:00.004+08:00

I don't game

im not someone who is into games like wad majority does when they have the free time.

im slow in playing, in reaction, in understanding wad de game rules/instructions..

sigh..

anw, had a fun day with my love and cliquey.

went swimming in the afternoon wif my boy, we were playing around instead, and sun tanning..
and i like to reminisce how he used to woo mi back that time..sweet~

aft which, went home rest and out agn to meet cliquey.

andand, because of my laziness, my boy piggyback mi down the stairs.hehs =) loves <3

surveyed the whole fairprice to check out the price and items that we need for chalet.had lots of fun in there.jokes~

dinner-ed and arcade-ed.

home-d =)

anyhow, if u really want go for that ogl camp or even to go dere to help out, go ahead =)

"A silent hug means a thousands words to the unhappy heart."

2009-03-18T19:18:00.005+08:00

out of sudden, i read all my past posts.
and somehow, my world was evolved around work in restaurant and work in JOS. Nothing interesting in my life.

it seems tat i did changed, my appearance, my way of talking..sigh~

andand..im just not in the mood to blog..dun ask mi why.=(
just feel like lying on my bed and do nth, think nth.sigh~

2009-03-17T21:35:00.005+08:00

results out today at 8am, received the sms at 8.03am, logg-ed in at ard 9am to check my results.

satisfied, but at the same time, disappointed too..maybe i have higher expectations.

but anyway, wan noe my GPA? come ask mi urself, for i wun be saying it out here.

wad i can say is, overall GPA is satisfying. Whether or not getting the director list is another problem. I wouldnt care more or less..so long as i noe, i did well, i reached parent's expectations, its enough.

**director list is admitted to those who are in top 15% in the whole cohort, not ppl who must have dist in their results**

even if that is so, so be it.

but one thing im happy with, my boy actually improved a lot!! continue to work hard k?
i miss you.

2009-03-16T22:42:00.001+08:00

"I want to be in your arms, where you hold me tight and never let me go."

a stroll on the beach would be nice.

2009-03-15T21:41:00.001+08:00

a picture depicts a thousand words =)

2009-03-14T21:11:00.003+08:00

some overdue photos taken when darling and i went swimming =)

just enjoy the photos, if u dun lik the photos, u can fuck off..thanks

mirror image =)

self taken =)

anyhows, aunt brought this vcd, borrowed it from her and i had just finished watching.

'A TALE OF MARI AND THREE PUPPIES'

yea, and i duno why, i teared for every dog movie i watched, i cried when watching 'marley and me', dumbdumb expected i will cry -.-

but, this is sure a great movie, it is based on reality.

here the story goes, there is this dog, Mari, she was a stray dog(shiba inu) who was brought up by this caring family.she gave birth to 3 puppies, but times of happiness does not last, a 6.8 magnitude earthquake brought catastrophic destruction, trapping the grandfather and a girl in the house.

Mari, without caring about those rubbers, tried hard to dig out, in order to find her owners.and they were being rescued when Mari went abt searching for help.

but Mari and her 3 puppies were not brought back to safety.everyday, Mari would often goes the place where she and her owners will play, waiting for them. searching for food for her children while she herself starving, protecting them from crows and got hurt.

after 16 days, their owners decided to go back when the tremors were over, searching everywhere for her.

and at least, she survived these 16 days with her 3 puppies, and were brought back to the camp.

everyone was cheering and awaiting for them to find Mari back.Thats is because, Mari is the one who saved her owners.=)

this plot is quite similar to 'eight below', if u guys watched it.

just some random stuffs, before going out.

when i reached grandma's hse, lucky was so happy to see mi.jumped up to mi immediately, and yea, i gt a long scratch from him, bleeding somemore..

just somehow, he knows when i nid a hug, a warm hug.

while i was sitting down on a chair, he jumped and rest his front legs on my lap.
he stayed dere without moving, thats when he knows i nid a hug.

when i hug him, i can feel his warmth.

he may look big to you, he may look fierce, but i just love him.
like how much i love my boy, of cuz, i love my boy more.

He got tired after playing his favourite ball(the green ball).
gotta get him a new one =)

enjoying tv programmes with us.

dumbdumb is still working.sigh~
please please take care of urself.yea? i may not always be dere.

"I miss you so much that you're always on my mind. I love you so much that you're always in my heart."

2009-03-13T20:36:00.009+08:00

on a lighter mood, this is how tanned i am now.

anw, went to IT fair with darling, fel and alviss.crowded man.
everyone was shouting so loudly, luckily i din work dere.

went over to meet dumbdumb for lunch with us
somehow, i heard things that i dun wish to hear, but nvm =)

and yea,i agree the show girls there look hot and pretty.sigh =(

anw, 2 funny things happened.

FIRST
due to my sunburn, dumbdumb was 'good' enough to continuously smacking my shoulder to make mi feel 'good'.
and know what happened??
there is this 'ang mo', he turned and gave my boy a light smack on his shoulder and said smth lik, 'u bully her'. i was laughing non stop can.
when i questioned my boy whether he noe this guy, his reply was no.i was lik..rofl..hahas
somehow, this ang mo guy is friendly lar =) and dumbdumb still can laugh.

SECOND
fel and alviss were behind mi, with chris darling in front of mi.while we were walking out, i saw this booth selling router, so i helped my boy to look out for it.
and suddenly, out of no where, this damn box sticking out suddenly drop..
and of cuz, yea, i jumped. fel and alviss saw it, laughing non stop,
i was lik LOLS..
andand..chris was nowhere to be found, which means, we lost her.
know why? cuz fel and alviss were laughing non stop and we did not notice where chris darling walked to.

and guess who i saw when we were going home?

ALAN CHAN~
it has been 123456789101123 months since we last met.luckily he still rmb my name.

anyhow,
i dun lik the beating i got from you dumbdumb
it seems to me that you dun care abt my pain lorx
*smack smack* =)
but nvm..i can still endure, like what i am, im always a strong girl.
i wan to be dote by you.=)

"A great lover is not one who loves many, but one who loves one woman for life."

2009-03-12T22:05:00.000+08:00

no words to describe
nites

2009-03-11T23:54:00.000+08:00

i love my boy =)

2009-03-10T20:30:00.004+08:00

sometimes, things don't go the way we want it to be.
and when we realized it, it was too late.

no matter wad happened, you are always there for me.
giving the warmth i need, the love, care and concern.
i thank you so much for that.

whenever we have quarrels, you are the one who always give in.
you know it when i cried.
and i know how much u hated me to cry in front of you.

you sing songs out of sudden to cheer me up
you did as much as possible to convince me im the one for you.
im grateful for that.

you planned for our future, which i tink no bf would do that.
when u told me your plans, i know, somewhat, this will happen.
somewhat, we will last.

somehow, i dunwan to lose you yet my boy.
i know, my ignorance, my doubts made you upset
but i need secure too,from you.

like i always say, you are one guy every girls dream of.
so..can u tel mi, how can i not worry?

i know, we often quarrel over trivial matters
but without these matters, how would i know, how much u love me.
without these silly quarrels, how would we get even closer than before.

you are stil my silly dumbdumb, be it now or forever.
im not going to let you go like how i did in my previous r/s.
for i know, im sticking to you forever.

you may find mi irritating, noob, clumsy(which made u love mi)
u may find this 3 words mundane, but stil, im goin to say it.

I LOVE YOU MY DUMBDUMB.
thanks for giving in to me always.

and somehow, this quarrel made mi realize how much i want you, to keep u by my side.
i know, you wish for that too.

but for now, i really cant wait for chalet, where i can spend more time with you.

loves <3

2009-03-09T15:14:00.004+08:00

LTCamp

THE LYCANS =)

Getting to know each other on the first day

Playing games (The trust fall)

Last but not least, the lycans with vee(our leader) =)

anw, this camp is enjoyable,but suffering, and i love my lycans team =)
we are bonded, we break records, we perservere, we helped each other, we played games and etc.

although the results are not impt, but we have fun in this camp with the lycans.

LYCANS ROCKS!!

&&& dumbdumb wasnt in the same grp as mine. nevertheless, i guessed he did enjoyed much yea?
and u really did surprised mi in your camp skit, i know is shilong dare you to say that sentence.
"i miss my girlfriend in grp 1"
everybody knows mi now~

but anw, camp is over, and i had my 16hrs of rest le.=)

2009-03-09T00:29:00.004+08:00

*FROM TAGBOARD*
Yunie:wa really ah u 2 really s.e.x before. bu yao lian sia like that also can say out. i tell ur niang.

FUCK YOU!!

WHO YOU THINK YOU REALLY ARE HUH ? TRYING TO MESS UP MY LIFE IZZIT?

FUCK YOU!

WHO THE FUCKING HELL ARE YOU TO POSE AS MY FRIEND??

MYGOSH~ I CANT BELIEVE THERE ARE JUST SO FUCKING RETARDS GOING TO PPL'S BLOG AND POSING AS OTHER PEOPLE, IF YOU WAN, PUT IN YOU FULL NAME, DUN USE OTHER PPL'S NAME.
DUN BE SUCHA SCARY CAT~

UNCIVILISED PEOPLE~

PEOPLE WHO ONLY KNOW HOW TO USE THEIR ARSE TO THINK, ITS A PITY THAT YOUR MUM DIN TEACH YOU THE CORRECT WAY HUH.

2009-03-08T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 6TH MONTHSARY MY LOVE!!

hope you like the gift i made =)

Love is a promise; love is a souvenir, once given never forgotten, never let it disappear.

2009-03-05T21:15:00.003+08:00

LTC tml~

sigh, decided to go, cuz i noe dumbdumb veri much wishes to go.

anw, i just dread the days when there are camps

since sec 1, when i joined NPCC, i was so excited when camp is coming, but when i attended the first camp, i just hate it, nth special, nth fun except campfire nite, where the fire is burning and everyone is performing and singing.

5years in NPCC, quite a number of camps i attended to, leadership training, NCO training, normal camp in school and etc..

the only exciting camp is ATC at pulau ubin(new campsite) when im sec 3/4. the obstacles there are fun, teammates were cooperative and friendly.FYI, ATC is a mixture of all 6 areas of school.

but anw, i step-down with a rank of SSGT, which im quite happy with it.

enuff of my past, LTC is tml, at sembawang camp challenge. dread it~ i doubt i will enjoy much since we were separated into groups.sigh~

.

"Missing you is my hobby, caring for you is my job, making you happy is my duty, and loving you is my life."

2009-03-04T23:26:00.003+08:00

went MARINA BARRAGE with dumbdumb.
no doubts, the scenery there was magnificent, took lots of photos, but camera is not with mi now, so sorry, no photos =)

anyhows, played water with dumbdumb, stupid him made mi so drenched. but stil, it was fun.hehs.
yea, den rushed for work, so tired now.

LTC this Friday, im having kind of lik indecisive mood.
to go or not to go??
sigh..but most prolly goin bahx, althou leg has not yet recover, it stil hurts when i stretched.

"I love you more than any word can say ... I love you more than every action I take ... I'll be right here loving you till the end."

2009-03-02T22:22:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMUEL CHEW!!

"I may not know everything, but there's one thing that I know and am sure of; I love you."

2009-03-01T23:40:00.004+08:00

great day, great movie spent with dumbdumb before he goes for work.
*(so sorry boy, caused you to be late for work)

anw, im halfway done with the surprise for boy.
*(and forgive mi if u kept receiving handmade things)
cuz i feel tat some things that canot be brought by using money, are always things that worth keeping =)

im so deadbeat now~
and i miss my boy.sigh~

anw, this is the fish tat boy's dad caught, abt 3kg.
and dumbdumb is so happy over for it as he helped his dad.silly boy.hahas

"Loving you is all I know, and I'm ok with that."

2009-02-28T21:20:00.005+08:00

FISHING with dumbdumb and his dad.

a bad day i can say, most of his dad's kakis onli caught one or two fishes, whereas dumbdumb actually caught 5, but lose 6-7 fishes, saddened. His dad caught about 5-7 fishes, i cant rmb le.hahas.arent they lucky?? and all are big fishes wor.

and dumbdumb let mi play with one fish, as in hooked up the fish, the feeling is indescribable, the feeling is just so..good?
hahas

dinner-ed and home-ed =)

love every moment spent with you!

well, althou i stil feel upset, and i admit im jealous, but my mind onli tell mi one thing, you love mi, and only mi, nobody is going to replace my position in your heart. i trust you.

and because of all these silly stuffs, i just find myself loving you more and more for each passing day, sometimes, even just a simple miss you msg from you, every small little things u did for mi, it just make my day. and i noe u may get tired hearing the 3 words, but i stil wan say, i love u so much like nobody's biz.

and so sorry my love, cant meet you tml, i nida get smth, and its suppose to be a surprise for you, so dun reveal mi.k? love ya.

"You're here, there's nothing I fear."